Feelings of being a burden to others
I have been thinking about it for I have experienced a lot. Yes, sometimes my hurt tells me that may be I am becoming too much for someone. Sometimes, I feel this voice from him; you are burdening me with your issues. Sometimes, I sense him saying; by the way, what do I gain from you? Yes, it has been a while since we became friends, but what have you done for me to qualify you for the help and needs you always ask from me? To tell the truth, I feel these feelings and they torture me. At times, I want to stop bothering him, withdraw into myself and deal with my shit the best way I can or die with my troubles if I cannot handle them. But somehow I go to him again, and really sometimes he responds and gives me my desires and sometimes he indeed keeps quiet. And I am sure he receives all my messages, yes God does.